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Asleep by The Smiths

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
Im tired and i
I want to go to bed

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Dont try to wake me in the morning
cause I will be gone
Dont feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I dont want to wake up
On my own anymore

Sing to me
Sing to me
I dont want to wake up
On my own anymore

Dont feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I really want to go

There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well …

Bye bye
Bye bye
Bye …

can’t help but think why all of a sudden everything had to change.there used to be happy times almost always but now it’s gone.well actually there’s still some left only you can find it on the other “side”.suddenly a “wall” of some sort became very visible that if you attempt to cross it,patay ka!you act differently because you know that every move/word said can be used against you.or there will be things said against you.well probably this is too much..the thing is,.it’s difficult coz’ you always have to see whether it will be okay to act the way you used to or else you’ll be like a total stranger,unknown to everyone.ang saklap lng!

practice what you preach.i used to say that talking or explaining is “good” in the sense that you get to talk about the problem and hopefully come up with a solution in the end but this time i think explaining would do nothing,probably just more complications.it is because the mind believes what it wants to believe.

i don’t know what (will) happen(ed)?famous lines: “bahala na,go lng.cge kaya yan!”

things will eventually go back to the way it was..hopefully as sudden as the way it changed.*hopeful*

"Giving It Away" by Mae

And by the way you brought me here,
it makes me believe the best is still yet to come and I don’t want to leave.
Forgive my hesitation but I’m learning to trust in you.
Help me to dream these dreams because I don’t have a clue.

And if you’d be honest and say what you mean
you know I would promise I’d do anything
because I know that without you I’m giving it away.

Is this what you wanted?
‘Cause I’m willing to change.
Now that I’m certain,
that there’s much more to gain.
You’ve introduced me to the moment
oh but I’m looking to stay for good.
You asked me to stay forever.
Well, you know that I would, I would do anything.

And if you’d be honest and say what you mean
you know I would promise I’d do anything
‘Cause I know that without you I’m giving it away.

The nights are forever and maybe I’m wrong,
but it feels like I’m so lost without you.
So I step towards the heat, it’s the way I can see,
and it makes me believe that it’s you.

And by the way you brought me here
it makes me believe the best is still yet to come and I don’t want to leave,
I won’t, but anyway…

If you’d be honest and say what you mean
you know I would promise I’d do anything
And the nights are forever, I can’t get to sleep
‘Cause I know there’s a reason I’m in this too deep
And I’m sure that without you, I’m giving it away, yeah.

I’m giving it away…

Daphne loves Derby (Aware,Rust, and Repair)

fun day.i was with these people(ano nga bang ittwag ko sa inyo?)haha..basta masaya,picture2 tpos gala around science..ikot-ikot lng.hay nkkmiss sobra:D first time ever ko tumambay sa org room after 4 yrs in sci nver ko nagawa un kasi always crowded dun and im just a "commoner" back then so no reason pra mag-stay ako dun di ba?!..wahahaha!pro kanina we were there,ang ingay tpos picture2 pa..iba tlga saya!haha..wish i could do these more often.pang "break tym" lng nmn eh..salamat! salamat! more days with you guys,mas exciting,mas masaya!woHoo!:D

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erased na pla un bully post..naawa nmn ako bka bigla damputin tpos bugbugin akla bully tlga..pro 22o tlga..wahahaha..joke!hello hello na lng..see you when i see you,ciao bully!:D hello sa mga undergrad friends..wahahaha:D

wahaha..2 down!let’s count some more..bleh!:D today –> happy day plus happy people equals happy moments,yey!hopefully some more,feeling lost yet not really..haha:D cge study time na..till then,ciao!:D

i knew this day would come..i somehow expected it to happen.as always changes do occur especially now..when everyone’s too busy and pre-occupied.we say hi’s as fast as we say our goodbyes,sometimes just plain "uy", or worst just a wave of hand.time doesn’t permit us to just sit and relax bcoz there’s a lot to do.inside the class,same thing happens..i don’t know why.weird but i didn’t expect it to be like this.one tym someone told me something about feeling "na-oop".it hit me,oh yea bigtym..and then i started to tell my story na i do feel the same about the "others". and yes i do feel that too sometimes.i don’t understand why but i guess it just happens..but were cool:D what i do in tyms like this,ako na lng un naiwas to avoid any issues(w/c is the last thing we want right now d b?)haha..and i learned something else..that i have to be independent na tlga.nde na pwde yung dati,mahirap..kawawa ka pa if nkalimutan ka.owel.good thing i found a way to sort of de-stress me from all the "med" aspects of my life.new friends.haha..they make my life less stressful.walang pressure kasi there’s no reason to.basta they take my mind away from all those things.ayos?!apir!haha..salamat guys!:D

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the past issue was all gone..ang saya!its finally over after almost 2-3 yrs noh?tama ba?last summer was the best and the worst..i guess.now its all good..and im so happy that we’ve finally settled it:D tsong salamat..peace!never thanked you though..well salamat!:D mga bru paramdam kyo,i miss you all..hayhay

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weird,was i too busy to make an update?probably yes..owel nway,my life as a med student is..well,difficult and BUSY!asus..test overload!haha..imagine having 10 tests in a week,for some sec 13.add up the sgd’s and researches,people,changes..well i didn’t think that i’ll be able to handle it but i did..1st shift wohoo!:D but there’s still more to come..i can only imagine..but im finally here,juz have to make it good and prove my worth:D

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now i seize the feeling of bitterness..all of it.i say this is the day!finally..whew:D y the sudden change of heart?i don’t knw i guess im just tired of feeling the same way every single day when i should just be relaxing and having fun.i’ll just let it all pass coz there’s a reason for all of these..i know.i may not understand it now but maybe its for the best.in my own definition letting it pass just means that ill not think of it for the time being or as long as I feel like doing it but its still there.i just happen to not ponder on it as much.new perspective but trying to keep it as close to the old one so as not to forget some ideals.(hmm..really I don’t see the reason why I’m talking about this cr*p in here for all of you to see..nobody will understand it anyway.forgive this other person who feels more sensitive,emotional and deeper than the usual dorky one.perhaps it just wants to show a part so that everyone can see that there is still that other side that is barely seen.the hell w/the drama..haha!:D)

*”i always try to imagine what may happen in the future and do my best to prepare for it so that when that day come I already know what to do..”

*”love is hard to believe,ask any lover.life is hard to believe,ask any scientist.god is hard to believe,ask any believer”

*”laugh about everything and don’t bother yourself about the others” – only cure for anyone who has to seek consolation in himself

*”the reason why I hate goodbyes is because it only means that I’ll never be a part of your next journey” –rationale of those who have been left behind..sniff*sniff*